my 400th post. How long have i been like this?

I'm starting to feel that slight twinge of regret. Maybe i shouldn't have let my emotions get the best of me,i probably shouldn't have deleted all of you from my MSN list.

But what's done is done, no point crying over curdled milk. Who cries over milk anyways?

Sigh.

I'd like to think that today we made a 0.1 sec of eye contact, but as usual, i was the first to pull away. I'm so tired already. I can't be like this forever you know? Being happy and chirpy when i'm actually dead depressed and sad. Why can't i be forgiven?

I see you people talking with others. Laughing, joking. I see myself in that group so often now. But i always try to look away,to stop myself from being miserable. I miss all of that,bitterly.


44 days left to suffer, 44 days left to make things right.