Thank you very much. I'll remember that.

I thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could become between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We’d be alright,We’d be ok.
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I’ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn.
I won’t forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I’d never seen.
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I’ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had
you can have them back

When the tables turn again,
You’ll remember me my friend,
You’ll be wishing I was there for you.
I’ll be the one you’ll miss the most,
But you’ll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
You’ll wonder why,
You’re all alone.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back.
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back



but i wonder why am i the one who's feeling like a piece a turd when i listen to that song?

Maybe i wasn't good enough to be anybody's friend. Maybe it's just me.
It's always been me, i'm the wrong.
And the shittiest thing about this,
is that you can't fix things up, can't bring back what things used to be.
For all the wrongs i've done, i must've done something right, right?


Sigh.

Had one of the worst nights of my life yesterday. I was in a terrible mood, and i came home all sulky and that. I snapped and yelled at my mom for no apparent reason. I refused lunch and dinner(which made me crawl down to the kitchen at 11pm to curi makan chocolates). I felt so.....alone. Really. I did not exactly cry la, but you know, tears of frustrations.

Gawd, i am so weak.



Sorry seems redundant now. After what i saw with my own eyes today, this really signifies the end of all hope to patch up things again.

Maybe it is too late. Or maybe because i'm a chicken. Or maybe i'm feeling sorry for myself. or maybe i'm thinking too much, or maybe it's just me.

Maybe.


I am. Very. Sad.
and still sorry.