Just another day,just another.

I am an asshole.
a big fat obnoxious asshole.

I actually got jealous because of THAT???


Today,
i can't even begin to say how sorry and guilty i am.
I love my friends,
but i was being a moody,ungrateful grouch,
i lashed and snapped at them for no particular reason.

I'm so sorry.
especially to shin, who was the primary victim of my unpleasentness.
She's a good friend,
i had no right to treat her like that.


Speaking of friends.
I think everyone's changing, including me.
I don't know,
i've talked to wei ren about how i feel about this subject.
He's a great listener.
Talking to him is comforting, at least it beats all the snide remarks and mockery i receive when i try to talk about my problems.
He's more of a man than any of you guys think.

I really really want to go back to the old days. I hate the now us. I want my friends back. I want myself back. I want my life back.





today,i did not even talk to her.
Not even a single word uttered.
Amazing willpower right?
no wait.....
SHE didn't talk to me.
How.....depressing.
But maybe it's better this way.






Recently I've been,
Hopelessly reaching
Out for this girl,
Who's out of this world.
Believe me.

She's got a boyfriend
He drives me round the bend
Cos he's 23
He's in the marines
He'd kill me

But so many nights now
I find myself thinking about her now.

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps draggin' me in and
I know I never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her.

Gotta escape now
Get on a plane now. yeah
Off to L.A and that's where I'll stay, for two years.
I'll put it behind me
Go to a place where she can't find me

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league,
I'm wastin' my time
'Cause she'll never be mine
I know i never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her

She's outta my hands
And I never know where I stand
Cos I'm not good enough for her
He's good enough for her

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league,
I'm wastin' my time
'Cause she'll never be mine
I know i never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her