I did not think i'd cry

i thought i'd be happy.
thought wrong then, didn't I?

I was...AM inexpressably sad now.
Not really emo, but sad.
I actually allowed a few hot tears
flow.

It's not because of the company
i hang out with,
my friends are all wonderful people,
but i guess it all comes down to me.

I'm a changed person,
but not for the better.
I've turned into something.....
well...
unpleasant. But a lil bit more than that.



and you still don't know,
you're the reason for all this.

I just wanna let you KNOW,
that's all,really.
but why is it so difficult?





......and we're not talking,
like we used to.
Is it me? or you?