the other me.

I'm tired.
No,really, i've given up counting how many times i've said this, but yea, i'm seriously tired. Emotionally.

I'm sick of this charade.
Being someone i can't be anymore. It's draining. All this while, people see me as that happy-go-lucky fool. I'm so glad they don't see the 'other' side of me. I scare myself shitless sometimes too.

Nominated 'Court Joker' for Students Choice Award. heck, what an irony.

Maybe what i'm searching for is just...well....i'm not entirely sure what i want exactly. Love? Reasoning? Security? An Answer? answer to what? I don't even know what's the question.
I just want someone to listen. Someone who won't laugh or critisize me. Just a chance to pour out everything. I'm done being lonely. I'm done being so pessimistic.

You know what? I don't know if you noticed, but i think all my previous posts don't vary from this one.
Conclusion: I'm still feeling all THIS...



iTunes playing Find Me-Boyce Avenue.