the countdown ends.

So, the play of childhood has finally come to an end, the curtains fall down and we all take a bow.

Hard to believe is it? I can.

Leaving school wasn't really that hard, in fact, it seemed so...well, normal to me. It's those whom i'm leaving behind and might never see again that's choking me up. Those i love and cherish but never had the chance to express myself. I'll miss all of you, believe me.

I only carry two regrets.

1)No,i did not do it. Yeap,i just ran away, something i'm good at. I did not even say a proper goodbye. So this is me. Sigh. I rather feel physical pain than this. No point saying sorry now, the countdown was redundant. I'm still suffering and i did not make things right. Loser=me.

If only i'd listen to Gabby, Elle or Wei Ren, things might've turned out differently. =(

I still remember so well, that last year, around this time, we were playing that stupid charade game. Haha. Dang, i was good at it, was i not? Oh, and i remembered that Hallo'ween Night. Haha. Good times.

Oh wait, today's Hallo'ween. Minus the celebration. Oh well.

2) Of all my 5 years in CHS, i have never tried our canteen's Chee Cheong Fun. I kid you not.

Words can't express what i'm feeling now. All i know is, it's not something good. But what's done is done. I can only hope the ones i offended will remember me for the good times, if there were any.

so my story ended just like how i predicted, but not the way i wanted it to be.

I did not cry in school, not even close.

so i brought it back home.

EDIT. 11.19pm.

I thought i could lie to myself, convince myself that i'm ok with it.
It was so terribly hard for me. They were just there, dammit, just a goddamn row in front of me. I couldn't even bring myself to be in class, just because they were there. I chose to hide. Fuck. I really hate myself for this. Now, i think i'll wake up every morning, thinking about today.

All this cooked-up drama marinated by myself. And i kept bragging i could cook well.
Fuck this shit.
If someone,anyone, could come up to me now and start whooping me senseless, oh yeah, i'd enjoy that.

I.Need.To.Rip.Something.