My 2007

Whoa......2007. Not really a fantastic year and yet not so of a disasterous year.

Well, where to begin? Let's rewind all the way back to January 2007. Yes, i shit you not, i was totally flabbergasted that i was drafted into 4S1. Gawd, i only scored 5A's for PMR and how the heck did i end up in that class? I was kinda sad at first, all my buddies were in different classes. I was also feeling a bit lonely. None of the peeps in 4s1 i knew well enough to really hang out. Classes were HORRIBLE. I was so effin LOST, i mean, i'm just an average student, and suddenly f(x) and log10 appeared in front of my teeny weeny pea i call a brain. STRESS!!!!!!!!!!

But things got better as time went by.......a bit. Classes were still crazy, but i wasn't the only one who was doing terrible. The teacher i loathe the most, En Ng Kok Yew. I hope your hose you call a dick and your non-existanant balls will shoot up your bladder, making your pelvic area swell to the size of a mini whale, then all the urine will flow itself to your brain, and finally making you spastic....oh wait, you already are. EXHALE! i got that out,finally.

Anyways, i got to meet new super duper friends. Ian, Wei Ren, Benjamin,Elle,Shin Yueh,Gabrielle and Jess and so many more. I must say, we all get along quite fine, except for Marcus. *rolls eyes* I enjoyed their company, and the best thing is, i'm also quite on friendly terms with the 4S2 peeps.

Now for major events worth remembering.....well....there are a few frankly.

My super duper Sweet 16 Birthday bash which i'll never forget. It's easily the best birthday i ever had. I want to thank my good ole bitch Sonia for organizing it. I know all the trouble you went through just to make it happen and i appreciate it. I'll never forget that night.

I think they were drunk.

Then of course, another meaningful event. I participated in the 30Hour Famine Camp. We're suppose to starve ourselves for 30 hours (can drink water la) so to experience the deprivation of food that kids in those teruk punya country face. It was quite fun really. Minus the hungry part. There were performances by various artist and the people i met there were all SUPER! I'll join again if there's another one. Of course....i did make frequent calls to Sonia just to complain bout my empty stomach. And then some thoughts....

I really think i've matured a bit over the year. Oh yea, sure, go ahead, laugh. But i'm serious, i look at things now with a different perspective now. But then, all in all, i still can't live without my friends. I admit, i'm an attention seeking dude, i hate being left alone. I talk a lot, sometimes too much. So if i have offended anybody in the past, let me assure you, i did it unintentionally and i apologize. I just have this thing in me....i like seeing people laugh. So i always try too hard sometimes to make jokes or perhaps even act the fool at your expence.

I just want to say how much you people mean to me. And thank you so much for acknowleging me as a friend.

Sigh, SPM next year. Am i ready? i don't know. I think i DON'T want to face SPM. Maybe i'm just plain lazy. But i guess we all have to face the music. Eerrgghh.... i failed add maths twice this year, i better pass all next year if i want to get an A for Add Maths. Screw all these numbers.

Hmm...what else...let's see.....

Oh yea...one of the whackiest thing i've done this year.

When my mom saw what i did, she totally yelled herself hoarse. But it was only for one night, Halloween night.

One of my stupidest moments.....

Then holidays....well....i still say this is the worst holiday i ever had. I guess the highlight for this holiday would be my trip to Beijing. It was kinda fun, and i bought an iPod. But after the trip.....sigh...BOREDOM.

Ah well...I'll let go of the past, hold on to the sweet memories, and welcome the new year.

My new year resolution is to NOT make a new year resolution. I never keep them anyways.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!

A little excited boy

Yea! It's new years eve EVE!

Enjoying the fact that i'm helping with the cooking! I love cooking as much as i love food! And my kawaii lil cousin is coming down KL!!

Weeee.....

I have to type this before i forget.

I don't really know how to begin this, it's quite thought-provoking,at least to me.

Yes, admit it, we usually scorn and mock those who tend to fall under this 'emo' spell, we say they're immature or just over-reacting. But i believe we all have the right to 'emo' sometimes at this age, it's inevitable.

I usually receive these kinds of SMS's or MSN messages:

"Victor, i'm damn depressed and down now laa...."

"Hey, life sucks you know?"

"I hate my life, my parents...."

Yes, we will all feel that way sometimes, and i mean ALL of us. You vehemently deny this, but deep down ,we tend to feel insecure, bitter and just plain down once in a blue moon.

All i want to say, it's OK. Don't be afraid to feel sad or hurt. Wash yourself with this emotion, then get over it. I will admit, i can be very 'emo' sometimes, 'cause i want a lot in life, and i can't get them. It's frustrating. The one you care about is sad and down, and you can't cheer her/him up, then you start getting 'emo' yourself.

You see? It's actually a pattern, a circle. At this age, we have to be 'emo', only then we can grow. How you ask? When we 'emo', we feel all sorts of negative emotions, and we occasionally get carried away. But, by doing this, we have almost felt all the bad things you can imagine of, and then when we get older, we can just get over it faster, cause we know what it feels like. I'm not sure if you get me, it's complicated, and i'm not really good with words.

Now, i will say i'm feeling 'emo' now. It's frustrating and maddening. She's feeling down and sad, you want to cheer her up, but you can't. Then she rambles on about her crush, keeps reminding you what a wonderful guy he is. It hurts don'tcha know? Sigh.

But i'll get over it, i promise myself, i WILL. When i think about it, i'm just being jealous and silly. If she likes him so much, fine, i will accept the fact that i will just be her friend, and never that 'special' someone. The least i can do is to be there for her when she's sad or down, or just needs a shoulder to lean on(but i don't think it'll be mine =( ) Eventhough it is painful, i will swallow and chew down the fact i'm chasing a false dream.

I will get over this,but i never said it was easy.

SO! If you have reached this part, i thank you for being so patient with me. Yes, you might disagree with me at some point, but that's my thought. It's just life.

I will embrace the new year. I will NOT look back, no more dreaming, no more 'what if's'.

EMBRACE THE FUTURE!!!!!!

Scalped Scalp 2

I've lost some hair it seems.

Not really overjoyed about it. I'm ok with it, hopefully it'll grow back soon.

Darn, few more days of holidays left. But then, i rather go back to school really. This holiday has been quite depressing. I miss the hustle and bustle of school life. You know, the homework, the classes, student-teacher politics, my homies and bitches and all the funny lil things that can only happen in school.

Some random pictures i took.

this mini-football is a Xmas gift i got from my dad.....why football????Schools gonna start soon, and i feel all tied-up.

My Computer is back...

...but i'm not all that thrilled really.

my dad took it for debugging and all the clean-ups. So i just received it back today.
and man, was i pissed.

-the whole system is SLOW. s-l-o-w.........It just like lags every 2 seconds.
-previously, my connection,using this computer, was the fastest among my other available PC's in the house, but now, it takes me more than 3 mins to load up this 'Create Post' page while it only took less than a min last time!
-it's just slow
-slow
-laggy
-slow....oh,i noticed i said that a lot of times already. pardon me.


Sigh, i can't even download MSN. How crappy is that? And all the stuff in my computer is GONE. I frigging forgot to backup. Dammit. Damn sad la, no songs, no pictures,no movies.


Ah well....fresh start i guess. A new year, a new com.




Baka-yaro

The tragic death of Gina

she was such a promising young lady,but her untimely death caused us much grief. A minute silence for Gina please....

Oh,and congratz to my form 3 peeps who scored eight saggin tits for PMR!!
if u didn't, don't kick urself, i got 5A only, so at least ur smarter than me

Aftermath...

so i had one of the most rotten christmas yesterday...i was so sad,dejected,depressed,bitter and frustrated...i actually cried a lil last night...

but it's over now...let bygones be bygones.

Add maths class today wasn't so bad,in fact, i felt that i was enlightened. seems to me that logarithm ain't that hard as it seems.

Helped my mom did some groccery shopping...then watched a bit of TV...gonna do my add maths homework later...and that's my day i guess.

i do,and will not believe in Santa Claus anymore.
bah humbug, christmas is overrated.

i wanna welcome the new year.

i wanna turn over a new leaf.

ok fine, maybe i lied,staying the same is easier